I am kind of stuck on how to add all of the required wordpress coding into my own layout.If someone can please help me I would be grateful!I have the css done thanks to the tutorial at Celestial Stars took me awhile to get my coding correct but I managed to get that part done.Contact me at sara@thehearts-desire.net if you can assist me.

Today they were going to shut off my electric but I managed to keep it on.I have to pay 240.00 dollars within a week and I am trying to figure out how to pull that out of my ass.And of course rent is due today and we have only half of it.They are increasing the rent by 15 dollars starting in July and they already raised the rent this year.I will have to take some pictures so you know why they aren’t worth the rent increase.The only thing nice in this apartment is my furniture that I have to pay also.

I know things will get better and everything but this feels like some sort of test to see how much Steve and I can go through together without one of us leaving the other.I have been poor all my life so I don’t know anything different than being without electric,food,new shoes/clothes,and obviously money.You would think I wouldn’t be as stressed out since I am used to it but nope it is stressful regardless.

Steve is forcing me to work now I am to blame for all of this.I should have went back to work once my son turned a year but I didn’t.I am going to try to get a job at the place my friend works for but at another store.It is selling beer,cigarettes,food,and lottery stuff.I am qualified since I have worked with the general public at most of the jobs I worked.So I will give it a shot and probably have to take an extra pain pill during the day.

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last night i updated the brushes section and added a few brushes.i also added a new wallpaper.not a big update but i do have other pngs i need to add and i will do that soon.i have been dealing with the welfare office the past three days.they didnt send me a notice telling me i need to re apply before the 30th of last month so on the 7th i went and called to check my balance and it was at zero.

I was so pissed off,i called the office to find out why and i had to fill out the paperwork all over again.i had to wait till the next day to talk to an intake worker and my food stamps werent on my card till this morning.but they cut mine down by 80$ which i dont understand why they did that at all.i should be able to manage getting all the food we need though since i am a pretty smart shopper.

I just cannot believe how many hoops you have to jump through to get assistance from welfare.I think they must enjoy doing it for their amusement i swear.on another note i am so pissed at steve right now.i had 5$ which i was going to use for cigarettes since that was all the money i had and he took it out of my wallet.being as how we are totally broke i dont know how i am going to get another pack so that will last me till friday when he gets paid.

I hate it when people get into my wallet or my purse.they are both my personal things that are none of anybody’s business.But he will probably blame me because there was a delay in my food stamps.which it wasnt my fault.i would have gotten my paperwork in on time if i knew about the notice.ughh men sometimes are such morons!sometimes i think i should become a lesbian or a nun lol.

But that wouldnt work because i like men too much.not sure why since they are mostly asses.

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Today is my 27th birthday.i have been up off and on all night.I finally got up about 4:30 and took one  of my stronger pain meds and a muscle relaxant.i think i fell asleep but i am not sure lol.I have to finish up my shopping for christmas today.i need to get steve a present and tristan one also.i got paid from smorty so that is a little extra cash.

I have noticed a real decline in comments on my site.If you are from despair and dont comment i have started to report those people.I comment as soon as i get the email.I know people are busy but so am i and i still can manage to take a few minutes to do it.I will be removing some content since i dont think anyone is using the graphics or brushes i have made.So unless i get feedback soon about the content it will be gone after christmas.

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My dad is disabled,he severed his acl and meniscus when he fell a few years back.This has brought on numerous other health problems like high blood pressure,adema,depression,and problems with his feet and ankles.He also has fybromyalgia like i do and the same back problems as i do.He filed for disability a couple years ago i think right around the time i got pregnant with my son.He has been denied twice for disability.

He is on pain medication and numerous other medications.He cannot hardly walk or do normal day to day activities.He went to court yet again today and his attorney doesnt think he will get approved this time either.We wont find out till January what the judge has decided.My mom is disabled and she got her disability quite quickly.Women seem to be able to get it easier than men do.

I believe it is sexist.men are supposed to be the providers for the family but what are they supposed to do when they cannot provide a family financially?It is just another double standard in my opinion.Women are supposed to be the homemaker and take care of the children.When did society decide that men have to work?!?

Why do women have to be a certain way and why do men have to be a certain way.To me this doesnt make a bit of sense.on to another issue i have is the car will not start.Steve drove it home yesterday after work and it was fine.We were going to go to the pharmacy to get my muscle relaxants,and pick up my dad’s pills also.Larra was going to go with us also.Steve goes to warm up the car and it wont start.Larra’s husband came down and tried to help.No such luck the piece of shit wont work.we need a new wire that goes to the battery because it is broken in half.the only thing that was holding it together was electric tape.

Steve had to call a co worker for a ride today and his dad is supposed to help him today.He was actually supposed to come over last night but he didnt.Suffice to say we are pissed about the whole situation.We havent paid his cousin for the car yet.But if we cannot get it fixed which i am sure we can fix it then his cousin will take the car back and we will not have a car at all.I want the car to work because steve needs to be able to get to and from work and it is too cold for tristan and i to walk or take the bus.today is pretty cold because my body is hurting all over and i am wearing steve’s wool socks to keep my feet and a little bit of my legs warm since i am just wearing lounge pants.

i cannot wear jeans because i have nerve pain where my my last rib is all the way down my legs.the jeans just rub against me and it is not a fun thing.i found my site on the top 25 parenting and life blogs.m site is one of the popular ones apparently.this suprised me because i dont get many comments or much feedback in general.though on my awstats i average a couple hundred hits a day.i dont know if it is entirely accurate though.on another note i have added more graphics for free i hope they are useful.

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I have decided to bitch a little here.i have noticed a decline in comments on my site.i try my best to comment on alot of sites but people dont want to return the favor.i am getting to the point where i will probably remove the content because people do not seem to be interested in what i offer.i enjoy having my domain.this is my outlet to write about my life and about being a mom.i try to have good things on here but people just dont really care.now i think i understand why most site owners remove their sites.we dont have to put things on our sites for people to download and use.i understand not knowing how to make graphics because i was once one of those people who had to rely on others for a layout designed or for coding.so if i do not see a response on my downloads or graphics i will remove them.

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